I was thinking about the concept of heaven yesterday. Heaven is said to be this paradise, this paragon of beauty and astounding magic. Where one feels nothing but everlasting happiness. Where there is not a care or a worry that dampens the pure heavenly glow of it. The extent of Paradise is endless. One cannot help but wonder and even question the existence of such a fantasy, what with all the sadness and hardship that engulfes the world as we speak.

in the world, our world, our existence revolves around happiness and feelings. it seems that everything we do, we do for the sake of us. moreover, the universe is hinged on the principle that happiness must be taken. when we are happy, we feel that way at the expense of others. for instance, when we win a competition, there would always another party that loses. life circulates around the Win-Lose quality. it's what makes us.

so why the abrupt theory? well, in my opinion, feelings that we feel on earth cannot be felt in heaven. setting aside negative emotions like anger or hate, what about feelings like satisfaction or pride? can one really feel such feelings in heaven? to feel satisfied, one must take on a quest. quests are unstable journeys, filled with pain and obstacles. but how could one feel pain in a place that promises security?

what about pride? or imagination? I'd like to think that anything is possible in heaven. that our every wish be satisfied in a heartbeat. in that case, does imagination become reality? will we have to use our minds? do we learn? what about winning? how do we win, while another loses? do we win at the expense of angels?

angels.

can we fall in love with angels? can angels fall in love with us? what about those morbid tragedies where children die so young. do they remain children when they go to heaven?

please do not mistaken my monologue for questionable assumptions. in fact, I shouldn't even be asking too many questions. I do believe that heaven exists. I know it does. there must be a segregation between the evil and good. my mind make believes. i don't even know why I'm posting this.

is this a sign that I'm going to fail GP tomorrow?

My life is not a fascination worth the scrutiny of those who watch over me. Yet, I live amongst thin air and sparkling personalities. I am an avid fan of the KoreanPop scene. So bring me to the number thirteen.

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