Sunday, August 02, 2009/1:31 PM
you know things go bad when two people you really care about starts arguing.
I mean SERIOUSLY.
I didn't mean to blow this all out of proportion I really didn't. I didn't mean to fuel an argument between people who used to be so close. I don't even know why I am posting this! Honestly it's going to make things much worse than they already are. But I have to say something and not just leave it all out there for people to see. And this is between the three of us, honestly I didn't know how people who are not involved in this managed to get tangled up in the situation I really don't. Exactly how many people know about this? THIS isn't even a problem it's just something that cocked up in the process.
To HER:
WHAT DID YOU EXPECT ME TO THINK? You may think I jumped to a conclusion and maybe I did. Okay I KNOW I did. But honestly, what else could I think? Out of NOWHERE this absolutely random and awful post on your journal popped out and when I asked you, you blamed it on a guy whom we've only talked about A YEAR AGO? AND FOR THE SHORTEST AMOUNT OF TIME POSSIBLE? And a post that so magically coincides with our problem here now? YOU don't tell me anything anymore what am I supposed to think? GO AHEAD AND CALL ME PERASAAN IF YOU WANT but fucking really, I couldn't make sense of the whole situation. You didn't want to tell me anything, even though I did. Even if I really didn't want to. Because I knew this would happen.
You say you feel indifferent about him. If you did then would you COMPLETELY ERASE HIM FROM YOUR CONTACTS? that isn't indifference, that is genuinely wanting to avoid someone. TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG. for once don't lie to me. don't make up stories like you've been known to do. For god's sake, you cannot blame me for thinking that you absolutely hated me. you don't talk to me, you don't share. it wasn't like how it used to be. and if you say you don't want to continue our relationship like how it used to be, I understand.
sharing is different than bitching.
you should know that.
I was hurt because you refused to tell me what I wanted to know most.
and he was the only one there who could understand me.
you say I've done something that you never reckoned me to do. but why don't you re-read your post and tell me that again.
tell me upfront please. don't hide behind livejournal posts.
if you want to argue, say it to my face. to publicise it for everyone to see. you might be thinking 'bitch you're doing the same.' this is because I have no intention of solving this problem through discussing with you. you might not hear from me for a long time. I hope you understand. me you and him need time to wrap this around of heads. think about what we've done.
just so you know, I was hurt by what you said. do you have reason to be? knowing I did not bitch? and what about YOU? WHO ELSE KNOWS ABOUT OUR PROBLEM? and how would I know that you didn't 'share' yourself?
but you were right about one thing though,
people should NEVER jump to conclusions.
and. they. should. never. lie.
To HIM:
I really didn't expect you to get so wound up over this. Couldn't we have talked this over? I know this involves you but weren't you the one who said that best friends shouldn't argue? especially over a boy? you told me that. and now you've started this whole problem that I now have to solve with her. Granted, this was a problem even before you intervented but now she is genuinely mad at me. you of all people should know that me and her have had our major differences that we couldn't solve.
maybe we did assume. maybe we did jump to a conclusion.
and maybe, me and her won't be best friends anymore. but if anything goes, it will go.
it's okay, I've accepted it.
I've nothing left to say. if this is how you want to end it, then so be it.
I mean SERIOUSLY.
I didn't mean to blow this all out of proportion I really didn't. I didn't mean to fuel an argument between people who used to be so close. I don't even know why I am posting this! Honestly it's going to make things much worse than they already are. But I have to say something and not just leave it all out there for people to see. And this is between the three of us, honestly I didn't know how people who are not involved in this managed to get tangled up in the situation I really don't. Exactly how many people know about this? THIS isn't even a problem it's just something that cocked up in the process.
To HER:
WHAT DID YOU EXPECT ME TO THINK? You may think I jumped to a conclusion and maybe I did. Okay I KNOW I did. But honestly, what else could I think? Out of NOWHERE this absolutely random and awful post on your journal popped out and when I asked you, you blamed it on a guy whom we've only talked about A YEAR AGO? AND FOR THE SHORTEST AMOUNT OF TIME POSSIBLE? And a post that so magically coincides with our problem here now? YOU don't tell me anything anymore what am I supposed to think? GO AHEAD AND CALL ME PERASAAN IF YOU WANT but fucking really, I couldn't make sense of the whole situation. You didn't want to tell me anything, even though I did. Even if I really didn't want to. Because I knew this would happen.
You say you feel indifferent about him. If you did then would you COMPLETELY ERASE HIM FROM YOUR CONTACTS? that isn't indifference, that is genuinely wanting to avoid someone. TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG. for once don't lie to me. don't make up stories like you've been known to do. For god's sake, you cannot blame me for thinking that you absolutely hated me. you don't talk to me, you don't share. it wasn't like how it used to be. and if you say you don't want to continue our relationship like how it used to be, I understand.
sharing is different than bitching.
you should know that.
I was hurt because you refused to tell me what I wanted to know most.
and he was the only one there who could understand me.
you say I've done something that you never reckoned me to do. but why don't you re-read your post and tell me that again.
tell me upfront please. don't hide behind livejournal posts.
if you want to argue, say it to my face. to publicise it for everyone to see. you might be thinking 'bitch you're doing the same.' this is because I have no intention of solving this problem through discussing with you. you might not hear from me for a long time. I hope you understand. me you and him need time to wrap this around of heads. think about what we've done.
just so you know, I was hurt by what you said. do you have reason to be? knowing I did not bitch? and what about YOU? WHO ELSE KNOWS ABOUT OUR PROBLEM? and how would I know that you didn't 'share' yourself?
but you were right about one thing though,
people should NEVER jump to conclusions.
and. they. should. never. lie.
To HIM:
I really didn't expect you to get so wound up over this. Couldn't we have talked this over? I know this involves you but weren't you the one who said that best friends shouldn't argue? especially over a boy? you told me that. and now you've started this whole problem that I now have to solve with her. Granted, this was a problem even before you intervented but now she is genuinely mad at me. you of all people should know that me and her have had our major differences that we couldn't solve.
maybe we did assume. maybe we did jump to a conclusion.
and maybe, me and her won't be best friends anymore. but if anything goes, it will go.
it's okay, I've accepted it.
I've nothing left to say. if this is how you want to end it, then so be it.
self-proclamation.
My life is not a fascination worth the scrutiny of those who watch over me. Yet, I live amongst thin air and sparkling personalities.
I am an avid fan of the KoreanPop scene. So bring me to the number thirteen.
read my lips.
they're watching.
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